Life Remix

Every once in a while I will read my horoscope (And, yes, I do understand that most people just had their Pavlov's Dog instinct rung and are heading to their prayer closet for me. Isn't it great to be a domesticated human?) For the last several months, it seemed that whenever I would randomly read this bit of advice about how to best balance myself with the world, it was quite boring. Things like, oh well, there is nothing happening, so just be yourself.

Well, last week the horoscope told me that I would soon find out that I am capable of embracing more change than I had ever imagined. Hmmmmmm.

Although I do not subscribe to the belief that horoscopes hold the truth, I can agree that this outlook does play out. It is general enough to playout in most people's lifes, but for me it is definitely playing out.

The past week and a half has been like the Rocky Mountains. I have been at the highest highs, and lowest lows. I can't remember a time when literally, on the drop of a dime, everything changes. I have had to sit on a holiday morning and be shocked by a lightning bolt to the skull that I had agreed to two trips on the same weekend, and that I would have to tell my daughter that I would not be able to attend her first ballet. I had everything planned and anticipated for a trip that literally blew up at the airport and didn't happen; allowing me to do the former that I had to back out of. In those two small incidents, the magnification of other areas of my life have been profound, excentuating every emotion, fear, ego based mentality and dream.

The name of my daughter's ballet was the "Nut Remix." It is a modern remaking, set in Memphis of the famous original.

The name of my circumstance these days is "Life Remix." It is a current destruction of the ego that happens only in the present moment. All the screenplays in my head, all the assumptions of my mind based on what I have been taught and what I believe should be. All of them being blended by the one thing we so often don't pay attention to: NOW!