My Benevolent Demon

Here is a little ditty I wrote at a "real happy" time of life a couple of years ago. I was rolling into some good depression with the holidays rolling around. I couldn't deal any more, I loved my job but I hated myself. I love my family, but the thought of holidays kills me like the Black Plague. Life wasn't very good at all simply because I was living everywhere but the present. Alcohol was a seemingly good friend at this point in my life. Fortunately, I finally took a step to find some help. This was a place I began a journey that I began to actually realize that I could actually live being present with my life. I began to lighten up and realize that the ground isn't that solid at all.

I hope you enjoy this:

My Benevolent Demon
Scott Michael Winchell12/10/2003

My friend, My lover
My benevolent demon
How good to see you on this sultry, fiery night

I have waited so long
To see you once again
Hold me tight now
Drown the guilt from my sin

The river it flows through my soul
As I drink you to my health
The raging breeze puts my mind at ease
So I don’t have to deal with myself

Praise you for the good times
Damn you for the bad
Precious warm memories
Steal all the dreams I have